You’ve changed.

Today marks 4 months without my personal Facebook. The only reason I know this, is because I just counted the months before I started writing this blog.

Last night I thought of my upcoming , solo me, Arniston Spa weekend. Hubby is spoiling me by sending me off to go and relax. A friend from that area,who I haven’t seen in the last 5 months, heard that I am on my way to that side of the world and asked me to meet up for some coffee. It has been 5 months since we last chatted and I am excited to hear how he is doing.

I don’t know about you, but I do think about these kuiers. I play them out in my head, wondering what I will answer when this is asked or that is asked. I want to be honest, but not overshare, so to me, my words must carry just the right amount of weight.

Last night when I was making tea, I went over this question: “So, how are you?” And with all honesty I could say, I am doing extremely well. Nothing majorly changed. I did not get a new house, or a better car . But I did stop going onto Facebook. And it absolutely amazes me the fruit that came out of it.

The best thing is other people are starting to notice the changes as well. One specific couple who I never thought know about me, came up to me the other day and asked what is my secret? I really only can answer no Facebook, but can’t word why exactly Facebook dragged me down.

Maybe it is the constant subtle comparison, maybe it is the lack of bad news that bombards me daily or maybe it is the free time that I have now. What I do know, I am engaged with my life.

Thinking of leaving Facebook?

Here are some tips:

  • I have business pages so I do need a personal profile that can manage those pages. I created another profile and added that profile as administrator to all my business pages. I then deleted my original account and only use this alter ego profile to manage those pages. You have to have some friends in order for Facebook not harass you with ” finish your profile” reminders,so I added businesses that use a personal account for their businesses.
  • I have a twitter account but never go on there. Only reason why I still keep the twitter account is because of my business that is linked to the account.
  • I am active on Instagram. I LOVE Instagram mostly because it is in a picture format. I rarely read  what people write under it. Only if a picture really interest me, do I read about it. I have two profiles, one for business and one for personal use and I keep them separate. I don’t want to follow photographers on my personal account. I follow them on my business account. My personal account is private and this helps me to control who follow me. I found that Facebook became a very public platform, where with Instagram there is still a measure of privacy with regards to people sharing only the beautiful enriching ideas in pictures on there.No political headlines and anti-anything movements. Just peace, calm and serenity! 😉
  • Read a real book. Try it.
  • Get a new hobby. Scrolling on your phone and building your online persona is for some a hobby that requires so much time. Find something else to do in that time. I am writing a book at the moment.
  • Go “old school ” again, by using text messages to communicate or to say happy birthday!

Anyway, let me know how it is going.

To end this post, I will be extremely ironic and share it on Facebook, because let’s face it, you have to choose your crowd! 😉

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A Random picture of a fish I took on my recent trip to the aquarium .

Fruit of an unsatisfied life

It is not often that you come to a place where you have to face facts: This life is just not turning out as you dreamed it to be. That hopeless feeling of just never catching a break, just never reaching that place in your business, just never being able to breathe and just be.

We have become a culture addicted to travel. Why? Because it helps us to escape. We have become wanderlusts.

Wanderlust is a strong desire for or impulse to wander or travel and explore the world.

All is good to go on holiday,but something seriously wrong if it is our means of escape from reality and responsibility.

I was THE wanderlust. Since a little child, I wanted to travel and explore. I am a number 7 on the Enneagram personality test. A 7 is scared that life will not be an adventure. So I chased adventure, whether it was to have a nice cup of coffee with my mac on my table, music in my ears and staring across the sea, or planning the next trip to somewhere.

I always say it is much easier to go and explore outside and than to sit still and look inside of yourself. When we minister we often ask people to talk to God about what we are ministering on, as soon as we ask them to be vulnerable and share, they start preaching. They tell us what they learned, not what they were feeling.

The first sign of living an unsatisfied life is not being able to be vulnerable.

What does it mean to be vulnerable? It means you open up the you that is the most difficult to defend. Scary right? Yet, we have become so accustomed to not share that one part of ourselves out of fear that we ourselves don’t even go there. Instead we wander and explore spiritually and physically, hoping that this experience will numb the numbness inside ourselves.

Second sign of an unsatisfied life and it goes hand in hand with being vulnerable is to be able to connect. Intimacy is starting to decline in this society due to us not being able to show ourselves. A great definition of intimacy is by Danny Silk: Into me you see. It is coming to that place where you show the true you to someone that you love and feel safe with and allowing that person to connect with you.

Third sign is anxiety. To me anxiety is a feeling of being out of control. It is that feeling of not being able to meet the standard. Yesterday I had to renew my license and part of the process is to do an eye test. I can see, I am a photographer,but still the word “test” made my hands sweat and I held my breath  as I did the test. Finally when the official said that I have past the test, I relaxed. You see, my brain registered that there is a standard that I need to fulfil and immediately I started to perform to reach that standard. {Look at me being vulnerable here}.

Being an anxious person means that you believe a lie that you are not enough. Or if you do show the true you, you are too much to handle. The key is here, you. You are not satisfied with yourself.

We have so many coping meganisms just to get through this life. Some smoke, drink lots of coffee or alcohol , do drugs, travel, exercise excessively, become spiritualists, even go to church often, all in the process to help us cope.

But here is the thing, we were not created to cope, we were created to thrive and rule and reign on this earth.

This is my story: I was very unsatisfied with myself. My father one day looked at me when I was just a teenager and said: Make peace with who you are. I tried. I took on so many persona’s just to be able to define myself. I became the traveller,the christian, the preacher, the prophet, the writer and the photographer.Later I became the wife and seven years later, the mother. With every journey I found a piece of me, but still there was a longing and a hardness in my heart that just did not settle.

I am married to one incredible man, who was on a similar journey earlier in his life and did find what he was looking for. One night, he asked me: What about this? And it hit me. I have been carrying a pain that happened so many years ago that I can’t even remember the details.. but when it happened, I started to believe that God doesn’t care about me. I looked into myself and saw the confusion and pain that this situation caused,and instead of hiding it again, I took it to the One who I believed have failed me.

And a wonderful thing happened. He cried. Pappa God cried over my pain. Not because He felt guilty that I had to experience it, no, because He never intended it to happen to me. He didn’t cause it to happen, yet it did and it defined my life. Finally, I came to Him for redemption. And I met an incredible,beautiful and loving Father.

I cannot describe what I have been going through since. I lost 12kg, I started running, I cook {miracle in itself}, I celebrate my two beautiful men and furballs, I started to have compassion on people. I stopped performing for work.Judgement stopped in my life and I started to thrive.

I found peace and became satisfied in this life!

When I dealt with that pain, my perspective changed. Previously I was focused on me and what I can get out of God, but now, I became a son of God. I see Him for who He is and fell in love all over again. My heart became that of a blessing and I want to celebrate and worship Him in all His glory. My trust was restored in Him and I can walk with my head held high, knowing that My Daddy got this.

Be blessed!