He is a Father…

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The biggest buzz at this moment in the South African Christian world is that the very controversial pastor from America, Steven Anderson, was banned from coming to South Africa.I followed the story, but quickly got bored with all bickering and went on with my day.

Today marked the day that my boy started to walk confidently. I posted about this event just two weeks ago, but a week after David took his first steps, he just stopped. I could not fathom why and google was at a loss with all my endless questions as to why he stopped walking. Finally, I just gave up and let him be, and what do you know, he starts walking confidently all by himself.

While I was outside with my boy walking away, I suddenly felt the presence of God. Peace came around me and mister waddle in front of me. Through all the giggles of my little who is discovering the world at an alarmingly fast pace, I was vaguely aware of His Presence. It was as if God was walking with me and both Him and I were astonished at the beauty of this boy and his innocence.

I took note of this and went of with my day.

I hurt my Achilles tendon through who knows what and was on my way to the physiotherapist this afternoon when I sensed God again. This time, just riding with me in my car, soaking up the glorious sunshine. My upcoming trip to Israel is two weeks away and the timing of this injury is just not ideal. I chatted to Him about it, but just received a calm reassurance that all will be ok.

As I pulled up at the practice, I heard Him say: “You are a beautiful woman.”  As He said it, I was right at the door of the practice that had a mirror in . I looked at my reflection and saw the bandage around my ankle and my very sweaty face, but I felt His adoration and lifted my head in confidence.

This evening we went to the beach and once again God came with. My dogs actually behaved themselves and allowed a little boy to pat them without jumping up against him. My husband was processing his day with me and again, I heard God’s voice: ” He is My beloved son.”

Only now, it dawned on me, I think Mr Steven Anderson has not tasted the love of this Father yet. He knows God but missed the heart of the Father. Only orphan thinking would wish doom on a country when he has been banned from it. Only orphans will point fingers filled with wrath at how lost our nation is .  A true son will take responsibility and step up to the plate. Like the One true Son did so many years ago. The One that was without sin, became sin for us to walk free. My prayer now for this man is that he will receive such a revelation of God’s Father heart.

He is a Father in our everyday lives and He is absolutely besotted with us. He is not ashamed to be seen with us. His Love is proud to be seen with me. He does not give His heart in pieces, He gave it wholly. His Love is a fire burning bright for me. His love is not passive and it is never disengaged. His love hangs on every word He says.

 

love

 

Selah.

 

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a Hallo and Goodbye

WHAT A YEAR!

I cannot believe that the end of this year is in sight. Wow. This year has flown passed and to me it felt like it was jammed packed. At this moment, we as a country are in mourning for our Beloved Father of our  Nation, Nelson Mandela. I love all the tributes and tears fill my eyes when I think that I am part of this country. I know we have our struggles, but wow, have you seen our nation this last couple of days? Beautiful. This is the true South Africa.

My year has been filled with very lows and very highs.  My illness is the obvious low, but again I stand amazed at my incredible Heavenly Father’s ability to change all things for the good for those who love Him. Last week I attended an advocacy workshop as a representative of a group called TB Proof. Our own Madiba was a TB survivor. I felt honoured to be walking this road with the most amazing people. Even though  I do not know much, I am looking forward to learn and definitely bring TB to its knees.

One thing that this year has taught me is to love myself. We somehow believe this lie that we should love our neighbour more than we love ourself but Jesus said to love our neighbour as we love ourself. I have learned that I do want to live. This causes a different spin on the way I perceive life. I have mentioned this before, but I have started to really set up strong boundaries to protect the most dear to my heart. If you are a happy human being, you are a happy neighbour causing a pay it forward effect. Respect and honour are key attributes of someone who loves himself.

Look at our election coming up. The last couple of days has shown us how incredibly beautiful our country is.I couldn’t help but to notice that our South Africa now is not reflecting Tata’s dream. I want leadership in this country that reflects the value of its people. We can do something about it by voting.

Another thing I also learned this year that ties in with loving your neighbour as yourself , is to think before your speak. Words do carry power. Before you say or do something, whether light hearted or serious, think if this truly is complimenting the receiving party. A lot of unnecessary hurt can be prevented if we start to think before we speak.

I once was in a conversation where I was suppose to be safe. I heard how someone said that he believes that people who have a sickness was caused by having a bad relationship with God. I just stood there, knowing that everyone in this room, including the person who said it, knows that I have TB.  Indirectly I was just judged by my relationship with God. Luckily, I know my God and the truth. My believe system rejected this lie and I could still accept this person for who they are.

I want to end with this. We are God’s glory. We do a lot of crazy things in the name of God, but His heart is towards people. He wants the best for His children. I would say to treat each other according to that understanding is a great place to start.

This year has been tough and great at the same time. As I am sitting here, I am tired to my core. Therefor I am taking a break till the 6th of January 2014.  I will then post chapter 4 of my story! 😉

Thank you so much for the incredible support these last couple of months. I feel the love and have no words to express how much I appreciate every email, Facebook message and sms. Without your loyal support, I would have never been able to walk this journey. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!

Have a very blessed christmas and very happy new year….

Love,

Linda

More than ordinary

Today I want to share with you a testimony. Last week, we had the privilege to listen to one of my favourite leaders of Bethel, Paul Manwaring,speak here in my valley. I was surrounded by other Bethel students and great men and women of God,and I loved every second of it!

As you are reading this post, you most probably know that I am in an ongoing and victorious battle against TB. You may know that I am a wedding photographer, a job that I thoroughly love. You might have picked up that I am extremely happily married to a man that I would have never imagined would love me and now loves me past my wildest expectation. Lastly, you might just also know that I recently started to write a fiction story.

When I look at these last couple of months, I have to pinch myself. I have gone through extreme lows through my sickness and now I am experiencing a redemptive story with my own life. Where it will end, I do not know, but the One who is writing it, is skilful and so incredibly good. My life has been turned upside down and through each step, He was there and now I can feel He is about to show me something that is beyond my wildest dreams.

I love God. I do serve Him, but I serve Him through a response that was created in my heart when I started to accept His unconditional love in my life. He is beyond good. This God, this incredible Father truly LOVES us. I have learned through my walk with Him that He loves to hand out kisses. He makes me giggle and when I think of Him, my heart melts. He is GOOD in every fibre of His being. You will not find one trace of evil in Him. Why am I saying this?

This past week, I spend some time with a pastor from the Eastern Cape, Nigel Desmond. I have known him for awhile and he truly carries the joy of God. A couple of years ago, we went with him to Zimbabwe on a ministry trip. At that stage of my life, I was in ministry. I could sense in my heart that I wanted to do something else, but there was no voice that could have confirm that. I just thought I was being lazy and didn’t want to finish what I have started. Oh, how we doubt ourselves.

The last evening in Zimbabwe, Nigel prophesied over my life and said: “Linda, you are going to capture beauty with your camera.” This word was so far removed from my every day reality. I didn’t even have a camera on that trip! There was no way that he could have known that I was interested in photography.Back home,I had a camera but was at the same time surrounded by really talented people who LOVED photography. They were more into it and people recognised them. Not me with my old silly camera. At that stage I truly believed I do not have what it takes to become a photographer. I was just Linda, the difficult and insecure one. No talents. 🙂

This past week I looked at Nigel and realised , wow, his word came to pass in my life. I now am doing what he said I will do and I LOVE IT! It doesn’t end there. Stoffel and I decided back in 2010 to attend Bethel School of Ministry in Redding, California. It was a huge step of faith  for us. As we were entering the USA, I sat in the plane and looked over the landscape of the States. I asked God what he wanted me to do. He answered: “This is your year to come alive, I want you to attend the creative class.” I was baffled, me, Linda, with no talents, doing the creative class?

The first day in the creative class, I looked around at all the students. There were really talented people in the room and me. I had no background like them. I didn’t study any kind of graphic design or writing. I was just a campus minister. I decided to do the photography and creative writing course. As I was sitting in class, Theresa Dedmon, who was the head of this class, mentioned that we will do a project and we will have to present it to a panel. Oh no, no talent Linda is going to sink this ship! I was surrounded by top photographers and we were working hard to compile our book for this project. They took me under their wings and taught me the ins and outs of photography and portrait photography. I am lucky, I learned from the best, not only one, but 6 photographers!

One day, Theresa came to me. She loves South Africa and was drawn to my silly accent. She too, had a prophetic word: “Linda, you are going to write a story similar to Harry Potter but with the supernatural life of God being the centre. ” I was shocked! I just started to get the hang  of photography and now this woman is talking about writing.. writing a fantasy story?! 😉 Have she seen my spelling!! If you are afrikaans, have a look HERE.

To the end of the year, I received yet another prophetic word from a student friend of mine: ” Linda, I see governance on your shoulders, you are going to be strong voice in Africa.I see you standing on a bridge, bringing people together with your voice” I thought to myself,am I going to sing also? 🙂  This was the most confusing word, and I just could not see it. Until recently.

Back in South Africa, life went on as normal as could be for two people who are completely aware of the Kingdom of God and being Powerful people because of Jesus. I started my photography business and I have to say I am very fortunate to be were I am at today. It is a tough industry, yet I LOVE it. I learned so much and have grown so much this last year.

My one wobble was when I was diagnosed with TB. But this is were it all got interesting. God did not give me this sickness, He can’t cause He can’t give us what He doesn’t have.BUT In Romans 8: 28 Paul says: ” And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

Yesterday I said to a friend that I am witnessing God making this Scripture true in my life. An illness that was stealing my life, He turned around into a platform for me to bring life. I am amazed. Because of my prophetic word from Nigel about photography, I was drawn to the creative class. In Creative class,Theresa then encouraged me in writing. When I got sick, I decided to write about TB. My blog has gone viral. I have countless people contacting me about my story and what they have learned. Today I saw that my story was published in a magazine. It is something small to some people, I know, but to me it is huge. If you would just know how far away I was from this life before. I would have never dreamed that I would be a full time creative!

In this past week I was contacted by an organisation who read my blog about TB. They asked me if I would consider advocacy for TB in South Africa. I am going for training next week to see what exactly this means. But imagine the possibilities!

You might be reading this and think, so what? This testimony to me, is extraordinary. I am beyond excited and humbled by what is happening now. I know me and know that I am not a super human. I know that I have fears and I struggle. Even now, I have to check into my thinking with regards to TB. Yet, God is above this. He is making me part of a plan so special and beautiful. A plan  that has been intimately designed for me to walk. He has been faithful by bringing people into my life, who tapped into the supernatural and released a destiny.

You are the same. No one was designed by mistake. You have capabilities and talents that are beyond any human understanding. You have a God with endless power and resources backing you. Take the step of faith and believe Him. Believe Him in what He says about you. Ask people to prophesy over your life. We South Africans see it as arrogance when we ask people to prophesy into our lives. I have learned that this is actually golden opportunities to alter lifestyles. We have been called to rule and reign in this world. We do this through the Holy Spirit and a Kingdom lifestyle. You never know who you might influence by following what God has called you into. We have not been called to live as victims but as victors. Step up and get hold of what Jesus died for us on the cross. Eternal Life. And this is Eternal life, that we may know Him. Knowing a Supernatural God is beyond powerful. Go for it!